self inflicted panic
ah, another night of panicked shortness of breath right before bedtime. my wife helped me manage to relax my breathing, but the racing thoughts were still there despite the ashwaganda, theanine, and GABA supplement. The brain is a powerful thing and sometimes there ain’t nothin you can do to curb the panicked monkey mind.
So it was another night of horrible nightmares filled with the most horrible things happening to the people i love the most, while i watch helplessly from a distance while trying to find a way to save them. Absolutely miserable way to spend a REM cycle. 0/10 do not recommend.
Today i will not procrastinate my work. That is partly at fault for my subconscious stress levels. I will tackle this horrible deck for the client and feel proud of myself.